Both kids are sick.
Riley's temperature was down to 101.3 this morning so I didn't take him to the doctor. Well, I checked it again just after 5 (of COURSE just as the office closes, I'm an idiot!!) and it was back over 102 again - and climbing after Tylenol. I am checking on him obsessively.
Then Aislyn, who vomits almost immediately after every feeding. I've already changed pajamas 3 times!! I think for the first time ever in my life I am running out of clean pajamas. Usually I have a surplus of those even after my underwear has run out! Anyhow, her temperature was fine until about 3 hours ago (when the reflexive vomiting started, -sarcastic- yay). Now hers is 100.3�F - well that was 3 hours ago. She actually feels even warmer now but I just gave her Tylenol and she's finally sleeping (somewhat) comfortably. I'm holding her. I'm afraid to put her down. The last time I laid her down she started choking on snot. So I'm typing one handed.
I went to a get-together with my friends and I'm kind of pissed off about it. Because Kara KNEW her daughter was sick but brought her anyway. Last month I had to miss the get-together because my kids were sick. I wanted to go but I didn't want my friends' babies to get sick too. So now both of my kids are really ill and it could have been avoided! I'm mad at myself, I feel like it's my fault. I hate when they are sick. Not because I mind taking care of them but because it hurts me so much (even more than I thought possible before kids) to see them hurting. It's hard.
Plus I get as much sleep in a month as you're "supposed" to get in 1.5 weeks. I keep bursting into tears. Aislyn is having such a hard time eating (because she can't breathe through her nose) but then the minute she finishes & falls asleep, she starts throwing up all over the place. It's really amazing how many bodily fluids a tiny person's body can hold.
My perv BIL gets home on the 9th. My M&FIL actually think they are going to come here to visit after they pick him up. Ummm... NO. I honestly don't know what the fuck they are thinking?! Kent's family is all kinds of crazy, seriously. If something like this happened in my family we would all talk about it openly. But it's all hush0hush with my in-laws. I HATE that & it is becoming increasingly difficult for me to keep my mouth shut (so as not to rock the boat) when they keep pulling stupid crap. Riley hadn't even been CONCEIVED yet when this all started. I know it's wrong of me but I kind of wish Chris would just get, you know, dead or something. I know, it's horrible to say but it's the truth. One less pedophile on this planet sounds good to me.
Kent starts his new job Tuesday. I'm nervous for him. But not nervous at the same time. He gets a 40% raise immediately and then after 6 months he will get another 20% raise. With this comes thoughts of 'maybe we really can afford another baby' (for me anyway). Kent is dead set against it though. Sometimes I think he'd like to give back the ones we've already got, sad as that sounds. He wants a vasectomy but I talked him out of it. Well, I threatened him out of it really. I couldn't stand to do anything so seemingly FINAL.
Jenn's 'meet Xander shower' is on Saturday. Sean & Tracy are coming up and I'm a little upset that I probably won't be able to go because of the kids. I miss my nephew (Seth). Blah.
In the daylight I'm fine. Even though it bloody snowed today. But at night it feels like it stretches on forever and my mood slowly declines until I'm a trembly mess. I wish Kent would take the night shift just ONCE si I could get some decent sleep. He argues that he can't feed her. But she only NEEDS to eat once and he could just bring her to me for that and then taje her back but noooo. He even has the day off tomorrow. *I'm pouting.*
I think the calendar is messed up or something. When I was little, half the time we had snow by Halloween, it was always a white Christmas and by Easter the snow was ALWAYS gone. Not anymore. Now we don't get snow until late November, it's rarely a white Christmas and (this year at least) we have more snow on the ground for Easter than we did for Christmas! It's ridiculous. And it's not that I think the planet is warming up or whatever. It seems to me we have the same weather, it's just pushed back a bit.
Well, you know it's time to end a conversation when all you have left to talk about is the weather!
10:52 pm - 05 April 2007
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