I got the letter yesterday.. Riley was accepted to Head Start. Okay, preschool. But when I was little it was called Head Start, so that's what I call it. Or is there a difference between the two? I don't know! Anyway. Now that I know he is going, I feel all anxious and twisty inside. I don't WANT him to go, I really don't. It makes me want to cry. How in the world can he be almost 4 already. Four years. It's like I blinked and here I am... I don't know how to explain what I'm feeling right now. I'm going to really miss him. Also, I'm wondering when I'm going to get time with him... it's just unnatural. And this is just preschool. I cannot even imagine what I am going to be like when he starts kindergarten and I can't even bear to think what it will be like when AISLYN starts school. SIGH. Why do they have to grow up? Or rather, why can't they just be grown up SOMETIMES and then I can shrink them back to babies whenever I feel like I want to hold them and squish them all day?
I'm a little bit PISSED at my M&FIL right now. They came through here on Sunday and promised Riley that they would see him "in a couple days" which ugh. Riley has THE BEST memory of pretty much anyone I know (not exaggerating) and he's wondering when his grandparents are coming. My MIL also promised to bring him a present when she came back through. Riley knows what "a couple" means... he knows that it's two. And he KNOWS that it's been more than a couple days. Grr. I don't even really want to get into all the crap I'm mad about actually. Anyway, there is still no word on when they are coming back through (they are at my B&SIL's in Standish right now) and we are supposed to go to HOULTON on the 3rd.
Which brings me to my next thing to bitch about. Chris wrote us a letter saying that if we wanted to go to Houlton (to my M&FIL's) for the 4th of July (like we do every year) then he would make arrangements to stay with a friend. (How he still has friends after what he did is beyond me!) So we made plans to go up. When I mentioned it to my MIL she kind of just avoided the subject - she hasn't even told Chris that we are coming yet! So he probably hasn't made plans and we probably won't be able to go. If they tell us on the 2nd or the day of the 3rd that we can't go up and stay the night, we are not going at all. They are (in)famous for not giving anybody notice of anything. They just do whatever whenever and everyone is supposed to just jump when they say so, I guess. I'm so sick of Kent's family!!! What's sad is that they are more of a family than my own. Heavy sigh. I practically have no extended family... once my mother is gone & my grandparents I mean. Anyway - that's not the point. I'm just tired of making plans and then getting put behind everyone else in Kent's family.
Kent's upset because his mum and dad will go down and spend a week or more with Sean & Tracy but they won't even come here for the day (unless they are down here for something else already, like an appointment or on their way to Sean's). I can see why that bothers him. We've invited them many times to come for the day and maybe go to the Children's museum or the park with the kids but they always say "Oh yeah, we should do that..." and never follow through. (Shocker.) But Sean just asks once and they pack up their things and drive 4 hours. They took Seth to the beach, to a baseball game... when Riley asked if he could go to a baseball game with Shirley & Alta, Shirley told him, "Oh I'd love to take you but I don't think you'd like it." What the hell is wrong with him? Urgh. I can't even write about it anymore I'm going to make myself too angry!
So.. we kept the last Kodak camera. We tried two other ones (a Canon and a Nikon) but weren't thrilled with either of those for various reasons. So we kept the 8mp Kodak and it's okay. We're getting used to it. Aside from the delay (which ALL the cameras we tried had) it takes great pictures and even better video. So we'll live. I'll probably whine to Kent in a year to get a new one though, haha. We paid less than $200 for the one we got. So really, for the money we spent it's a good camera. (I keep telling myself that anyway, haha.)
I joined Netflix the other day. I know, I'm probably years behind everyone else on this but I'm so wary about things. I kept going back and forth, back and forth. Urgh. So I joined. I never get out of the house and half the time I've got to sit up with one kid or another until 2 or 3 AM (either that or I've got insomnia.. why those two things can't coincide, I don't know). So I figure I might as well be entertained. I have Ghost Rider (whee, Nicolas Cage) and Chicken Little (for Riley) coming. Any suggestions on movies I should see? I haven't BEEN to the movies for a looooong time. Anyway.
It's FINALLY a great day outside. Riley is napping (late, I know but Kent has to work until 9pm so what the hell) and then we're going for a walk when I get him up. The past 3 days it was either thundering out or too hot to go outside. So I filled their little kiddie pool and I'll take them out to play. Yay. I think I'm more excited to get outside than they are.
Somehow I've managed to pull myself together in the past week. I've actually been getting up at decent times (despite going to bed at very indecent times) and I haven't been incredibly cranky. The dishes are done and the laundry is almost done today. I feel... good. (Except when I think about my in-laws.) So... Aislyn is smiling at me and I should be playing with her. She has the cutest cheeks. Did you know that? :)
3:42 pm - 29 June 2007
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