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For the first time ever, my daughter is in a car and I am not. I feel veeeeery sad about that. I've been bitching and moaning about wanting alone time for how long now? Now I've got it and I'm sitting here whining about how she's gone!! I just feel sick, knowing that the 3 people I love most in the world are all together, in a little death machine going down the road. There could be any number of idiots out there just getting ready to get in an accident. I would pretty near die if anything happened to each of them individually, I can't even begin to imagine what losing all 3 of them would be like. Gah. I will drive myself insane with thoughts like these. Really.
I miss diaryland but the longer it's down the more I think about just not going back. In some ways it has become a burden... I started feeling like I HAD to write, if not for myself then at least for the people who read. Now it's like some elite country club where you can look in the windows but you're not allowed to go in and sit down unless you throw your money down. I know, I know. It will get fixed. Then somewhere down the line it will get unfixed again. I just don't know if I'm going to bother with it again once it's fixed. Sigh.
I got a letter from my brother-in-law. The pedophile. He wrote 4 pages typed (on a typewriter... because of his offense he can't even have a computer that isn't hooked up to the internet in the house) and 90% of it was his typical woe-is-me crap. I don't care how many times he complains about the system, or his parents, or anything, I'm never never never going to feel bad for the guy. NEVER. I wish I could tell him that. I wish Kent's family wasn't so closed off that way, it sucks. I want to get up in his face and tell him just how disgusting, how pathetic, how utterly useless people like him are on this planet. Yuck. He was going on and on about how SAD it is that he can't be a part of Riley and Aislyn's lives yet. For the next 6 months he's on a certain kind of probation and unless his probation officer is willing to come up and, in effect, babysit then he can't have any contact with kids under the age of 18. Thankfully something is working in our favor!
Okay so. I should go and do something productive.
4:04 pm - 03 May 2007
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