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Diaryland is down. At, quite possibly, one of the worst times for me. I've needed to write for a bit so I finally figured I'd come here (I set up a preferred list, so if you're reading this then you are on it) and get it out. Only now that I'm here... well, I don't know what to write.
We haven't really spoken to Kent's parents in ages (since about when Chris moved back in there). Sean & Chris (two of Kent's brothers.. the good one and the pervert, respectively) are having a 40th anniversary party for Kent's parents (over Memorial Day weekend) and we can't go. Not that we'd probably want to anyway, but we'd go if we could. So I think his brothers are mad at us. Which isn't completely our fault as we were JUST informed about the party and it seems like it's something that Kent should have been involved with from the beginning. Kent just started this new job a few weeks ago and his immediate boss has that week off, so Kent has to be there. Not our fault but yet our fault anyway. It pisses me off.
Then there's me. I'm sick. In the past 2 weeks I have had (no kidding) a UTI (which was resolved within 2 days with cranberry juice), a thrush infection (I went to the doctor for it and she said to WAIT IT OUT, what the fuck?! it hurts!), a plugged duct (resolved quickly, thankfully), mastitis (fever, chills, all-over achiness, sore boob... what more could I ask for?) and virtually NO sleep. I just wake up every morning lately and think "What now?" Most days I don't even want to get up, nothing sounds fun or appealing. What I want, what I really really want, is to (just one day) sleep in as late as I want to, then get up and lay on the couch all day and watch movies. I'm so tired of entertaining 2 kids all day (didn't I have a second one so they'd entertain each other?), cooking dinner, and waiting for my husband to get out of work (late, inevitably).
I ended up searching online and bought Grapefruit Seed Extract for the thrush. I just got it today but I'm hesitant to start taking it. I've looked it up all over the place and it says (on several doctors' websites) that it is harmless. Still, my doctor hasn't heard of it and that makes me nervous. Of course, she's proven herself to be a certified idiot anyway, as when I was there for thrush she actually had to look it up in a book - even though I told her what I had. Gah.
Riley is driving me batshit right now (climbing on me, poking me and 'reading' over my shoulder) and Aislyn is crying (because for some shit ass reason she refuses to nap lately). I love my kids. I love them more than anything. But I do find myself daydreaming about the days before they were born, when I could lay around all day (on my days off from work anyhow) and I could go to bed when I wanted and get up when I wanted. Urgh. I suppose I should go.
9:40 am - 02 May 2007
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