I am completely exhausted today. Riley's been a cranky little beast. Whining and crying and screaming. He's not bad really. I just get so upset when he's upset and I cannot find anything to calm him down. It didn't help that I had 8 gazillion things to get done today. Just about every household chore you can imagine (except cleaning the toilet, I did that yesterday) plus errands. gah. I really hate running errands. It's especially irritating when I've got to buckle and un-buckle a cranky toddler just to run into a place and grab one fucking thing. No wonder Ri was so pissy today. *sigh*
I don't mean to bitch. Okay, yeah, I do. I just haven't had much time to myself today. 5 minutes here and there but not much. I did dishes, laundry, floors, a photo project for Kent's mum, cooked supper (eww I hate cooking). And a bunch of other stuff. Budgeting. Ick. Packing some thing in advance for our trip to Kent's parents' house. Nothing that included what I wanted to do: sleeping, eating, making a playlist for Katie-poo, or you know - nothing. Me sleepy Jennay tonight.
I had sex this morning. It sucks when the highlight of your day takes place before you even officially get up. Oh well. That's life.
People have been telling me that Riley's "big" and it's starting to bug me. They're not saying it in that "he's such a cute little chubby thing" way either. They're saying it in a rather insulting manner. Like "Oh well our kids are about the same height but my son is much thinner." And that makes me want to say, "Really, bitch? Then your kid must be disgustingly scrawny." Because I don't think Riley is that big, to be honest. He's always been big for his age but he's also always been proportionate. I check his percentile every month and every month he's at 50% for weight vs. height. So people can bite my ass. They say things and it makes me feel like a bad mother. Ugh. I'm too sensitive about it I guess. I was a much chubbier baby than Riley. I weighed about 36 pounds from the time I was a year old until the time I was about 4 years old. So bully for them if their kids are skinny, I guess. I'd take a chubby (aka healthy looking) baby over a scrawny (aka malnutritioned looking) baby any day. So nyah.
People in today's society place too much emphasis on weight. I know it's an epidemic but make sure your kid eats healthy and plays outside instead of sitting in front of the tv all day. You know? I won't lie. I worry that Riley's going to be fat. I worry that I'm going to get fat. But I'm not going to sit around and obsess about it to the point that I deny my kid any snacks or treats. If I always so "No, no, no!" to everything than he's only going to sneak it anyway. Right?
I get bitchy when I am tired. Or hungry. Or bored. Or. Maybe I'm always bitchy. I should be thebitchyrat, eh?
Umm. I'm going to go. Work on my playlist. I need to make sure it's finished before I leave on Sunday. And I'm not going to have much time in between now and then because I'll be at my mum's all day tomorrow and half of Sunday. Ugh. So I gotta get as much done as possible so I can post it before I leave Sunday.
8:41 pm - 01 July 2005
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